Height 156 cm, weight 122 kg, and BMI 50.1. I have never been exceptionally fit because of severe mental health problems and I have wanted to die for years and years, let me just get to the point where I am in a very terrible state. I mean, walking around a small lump puts me in a bad mood because I feel nervous because of shortness of breath and extreme depression because of my hatred. I am basically closed, out of work, etc. But I am trying to change my circumstances.
My goals are to be a healthy BMI, to be fit enough to do normal life things like walking, walking in walking and not dying, and improving my flexibility and lower back strength.
Nutritionally, I diagnosed EDNOS, so I either starve myself for days or eat binge. I have a psychiatrist who can help with the emotional aspect of eating disorder and other mental health problems (a sad story but it was a long journey inside and outside the hospital for most of the twenties of age, and extensive psychological abuse that required multiple surgeries and waking up to support life after attempting suicide, so I went through a difficult time Extremely).
I am also unemployed for a long time and in poverty, so paying for a gym membership / personal trainer is not necessarily an option. I'm scared of gyms because I'm really embarrassed about how I breathe when I'm with friends walking somewhere.
So yes. If this is a good post to do here, I think I'm just throwing this out there with enough information hopefully, and if anyone can tell me where to start, I would really appreciate it.